Monday, 23 April 2018

I turned 24, and I'm sort of unsure about it

I turned 24, and I'm having a quarter life crisis. Thoughts about ageing and being at the right stage of your life.

Twenty four is one of the ages I've struggled turning the most. At 20 I was no longer a teen, 21 is a big year to most people, 22 was my Taylor Swift year (the song not a fanatic phase), 23 was my golden birthday (23 on the 23rd), so now 24 is a bit of a regular standard birthday. It's also super close to 25, which to me is super close to 30 which is super close to 40 and frankly, I'm not ready for that.

I'm not a big fan of birthdays, to be honest, they're probably my least favourite yearly celebration. It's probably because the entire day is about me and all the attention and focus is on me. While there's all the celebration and excitement surrounding it that I mostly enjoy, there's also the pain of being the decision maker, as it's your birthday you have to choose the restaurant for dinner and the movie to watch and it all lies on you to keep everyone else happy. Then there's replying to all the messages whether they're from lovely friends which are fine and dandy to reply to or Facebook friends you haven't spoken to in ten years but like to pop up once a year on your birthday which isn't as enjoyable. To be honest, most the time I give up and just like them instead.

I'm one year off my quarter life crisis year but recently it's been creeping up on me. I'm at that awkward time in my life where all the other people around my age are either getting really cool jobs, getting married, buying houses etc and others are still stuck in retail jobs unable to get into their chosen field. So while I feel like I'm at an okay level I feel like I could be doing so much more with my life if only I had stopped fluffing about as much in my earlier years. If I didn't finish all 208 episodes of How I Met Your Mother in 2015 I could've had my print shop up and running by now. If I didn't spend so long worrying about my blog and having constant breaks since 2013 I could've had so many more followers by now. If I didn't do so and so I could've been doing so and so by now etc.

But then I was watching one of Charli Marie's videos the other day where she and Matt Ragland were talking about wasting time and he said something that stuck with me. He said that at 34 he still had 60-70 years of his creative life left, he was barely a 1/3 through his creative life and for most of that 1/3 he was a child so he had so much ahead of him.

Being 24 this means I still have 70-80 years left of my creative life so who cares if I haven't got my shop up and running yet? I need to stop comparing myself to others and start being productive towards my own life's path.

How do you feel about your age? Do you feel like you're on the right path/stage of your life?


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